well....thanks for the encouragement, but wuts happened...*shakes head* theres no way i can turn a positive note towards it. ^^ at least ur right about joining this site. this makes the pain a little better to bear since i hav ppl 2 talk 2 other than my friends who dont really understand me that well. and im definatly the own enginerer of my own destiny. ^.^ i know, too, because im already a great writer! ive read most of my first book to my reading class and they're always sitting on the edges of their seats *at least, most of them r* so....yeah. i guess tat there r sum positiv things in my life....